2 weeks of classes and one week of finals left! It's really getting down to the wire. I have a lot of stuff to do in the next 2 weeks so I'm hoping to get everything done and I'm sure I will.
My nephew and my boyfriend's birthday was on Friday. Sid turned 10 and Bobo turned 21. I'm so upset that I wasn't home for their birthday. I never miss those things but I was able to skype with them and talk to them at least. I feel so old now that Sid is 10 now. I can't believe he's already 10! He'll be a teenager way to soon for my liking haha. Bobo went to my house for dinner and then I think he went to the movies with his cousins. I know he just turned 21, I know he's said he doesn't want to drink but I was really nervous for him to go out with his cousins. I asked him not to and he said he wouldn't and then I thought about it. I sound really hypocritical of me to say that to him after I went out for my 21st birthday. I know I'm not much older than him but I've gone through enough to have known that I didn't really want to drink but it seems that's the only way I can hang out with certain friends. Whatever though; it happened and it's fine. I joking told him he gets one 'can you come get me' call and that's it and I jokingly told him he had a week to get it out of his system. I know he wont drink but I was just worried about this weekend and possibly some of his friends back at RPI but I know he has a strong enough will power anyway.
My dad has somewhat officially quit his plumbing job! He's pretty much working part time while the deli gets on its way. I still have to talk my Lane Bryant about days I can work because I'll be in the deli. I'll probably work mostly closing shifts at Lane Bryant but it's income until the deli picks up. I'm so proud of my dad, my family for doing this! Coming home is going to be so much more exciting with all the new things going on. It'll take some time for me to adjust fully but that's something I need to work on. Ra is also starting new things too! She applied for some customer service jobs down in Astoria. I know, those of you who know my sister don't really think customer service but she does need the change and get the hell out of the burgh cause god knows that job really is going nowhere fast. She has an interview Tuesday and I really hope she gets it! I'm really happy for her for go for the change and she has been sticking with her sobriety. It's a day by day thing but she's been sober now for 4 or 5 months now and I'm so proud of her for everything.
Danielle broke our rule! She wasn't supposed to post any pictures until I came home but she was going through some emotional stuff. She decided that she's a new person and that her old self made that promise and she just wanted to show how much more her new self is. I can respect that and it's fine. As long as she's happy and growing into the person she wants to be, then what the hell right.
On a much more serious note, a really good friend of mine from college overdosed last week and was hospitalized for a few days. She's alive and doing better but I don't know if I'm alright you know. What happened was that she was dating a guy who has Borderline Personality Disorder and he started to become very critical of her, saying that her problems and such weren't as important as his, verbally abusive towards her and he was being physically abusive towards her therapy dog. He was making all her triggers worse and worse and she finally couldn't figure out what to do anymore. She took both bottles of her meds, aspirated on her own vomit. Luckily her roommate was home and was able to call an ambulance in time. The guy just stood there wondering what to do and not helping her at all! I'm heartbroken that it had to come down to that and I'm pissed at her now ex boyfriend. Part of me feels like if I had been there I could have done something to help her maybe end the relationship before it got to that point or something. I don't know I'm still just in shock. She had withdraw from this semester and she has to get an order of protection on Monday. It bothers me and hurts me so much that I'm not home to help in those moments. There's not a lot I can do from here except to check in every now and then and talk to people when I can. I'm still a little shaken by it and I know she's doing better and she's alive. That's what matters to me.
Things here in Italy have been fine though. Thursday I gave a talk in my cross cultural psych class about mental health. Active Minds at Oswego started this Speak Your Mind panel discussion where members from the club go into classrooms and share their personal stories about mental health issues; whether they themselves have a mental health disorder/issues or know someone who does and how they handle/deal with it. Guess what I had to do? Yup, you guessed it, I sat with my class and divulged information and my story to them and some it was things I haven't even told my friends back home. I did omit some information because I didn't want to make it just that much more uncomfortable but I know when I do it at Oswego to include that information. Granted, the class Thursday was small (I mean like 5 students total because everyone went to Paris and some decided to skip class) but I was still nervous as hell doing it. It was a great success though. One of my classmates brought her aunt with her to class and her aunt actually started to cry. I guess she was just so moved and touched by my story and bravery, that's how she responded. I'm glad I did it and I'm glad that it was successful. I hope that when I get back to Oswego, we'll being doing this in full swing and I'm so pumped to do it again. I kind of know how to go about it now and how to organize my thoughts a little better.
I went to Rome on Saturday and it was amazing! I went to Vatican City, the Trevi Fountain, and the coliseum. Vatican City was amazing and it's freaking huge! I climbed to the very top of St. Peters Basilica and the view was just incredible. I climbed 1,102 steps; 551 up and then back down. My calves hurt from it today but it was worth the view. Just being there was amazing. After that, I headed to the Trevi Fountain. I honestly don't know anything about the Trevi Fountain but it was still amazing to go there. It's a huge, beautiful fountain and I could have just say by it all day but damn was it crowded. It is definitely tourist season now which kind of ruins the rest of the experience here but hey I've been living here for almost 4 months so I can't complain. After that, I went to the coliseum. I was just blown away by it. I'm seeing things, going to places that I never thought I would and there I was, just hanging out at the coliseum. I was literally touching history and was just in complete awe of the coliseum. I wish my family and my boyfriend could have been there. Going to Rome and getting to do small trips like that really are amazing. I really need to thank my grandma when I get home for giving me the money to go to Rome and getting to go to Pompeii.
I hope everyone at home is doing well and I will see you all soon! <3
Miss you!
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