It's been a pretty rough week for me. Aside from the housemate issues, which my mom has helped in making a contract that we will all go over tomorrow when I can print it out and everyone will be home, it's been a lot harder this week to be here. Yesterday, I got to skype with my entire family. They were all at my grandparents house to celebrate PeePa's 70th birthday. It was really awesome to say hello to everyone and get to see and talk to everyone but it was really sad for me not to be there with them. Toni-Ann "fed" me meatloaf through skype (and it was delicious!). It was just really hard to not be there. There's rarely been a family event that I have missed and it really sucks that I'll be missing a whole bunch of birthdays and holidays while I'm here. I'm grateful that I'm here and I'm lucky that I'm here, I just miss home so much.
Bobo has been having difficulty this semester. His work load is a lot more intense and he also decided that he doesn't want to do research anymore. So he's also having a crisis of career. He said he's been considering becoming a high school physics professor and I'll support him in whatever his decision is (as long as it's healthy, just to clarify). We've also been having some communication difficulties which makes things somewhat tense between us. After we had down the two days a week we would talk/skype, I thought it would be cute to email him daily about my day and what was going on since there's no privacy to talk here, I'd let him know what was on my mind and stuff. It was working well for like a week and then he just stopped checking his email. Then we talked about it and he said that he's always on skype so I can send him skype messages. I did that and he was on skype once. I really thought he was avoiding me and didn't want to talk to me. Turns out he was avoiding other people online and he's actually become somewhat fearful of being online. I can understand him not checking his email because RPI sends him a lot of emails about physics research and he doesn't want to do that anymore. On skype, he was avoiding someone he was fighting with and then he was avoiding other people as well. He forgot to at least give me a text letting me know this so I thought he was avoiding me too. Well he's not and he's been so depressed and he's not getting enough sleep either. We talked about it tonight and we came up with a new plan (although I really have my doubts about it) that we will talk Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday. We really miss each other and I guess I never realized how, dependent, we are of each other. It's more like dependent emotionally and things like that. It's just really hard not being home or around him to do anything. There's no comfort if we're not around each other. I'll be home soon enough though.
Saturday, Dominique and I went to this really cool antique fair in Florence near the train station. I swear, had my mom been here, should would have bought so much furniture! It got really weird and creepy when we came upon World War II Nazi memorabilia. They had Nazi helmets, gas masks, some one's passport thing; it was kind of creepy and sad too.
So today, I went to Venice for Carnevale. Holy shit it was PACKED! I mean it was worse than Manhattan during Christmas. On the flip side, the costumes were amazing and the atmosphere there was incredible. It wasn't so much like a drunken party as it was more like a Renaissance festival but much larger. I think I might go back there before I go just to explore the city when it's much less crowded. It was really nice though. I had a good time there. I think Gina would have made a killing there with her face-painting. There were so many people lined up to get their faces painted for Carnevale. I think if I ever get the chance to come back here, I would dress up for Carnevale. It seems like it would be a lot of fun to do that. Yes, I did buy masks but I bought one for Danielle and one for Jessica.
I still need to get stuff for my parents, Bobo's parents, Ra, Sid, and Bobo. I have yet to actually buy myself anything. I'm trying not to spend all my money at once. I know I have enough and my mom send me like $50 a week for groceries but I just worry about trips and buying myself well really anything. I can't fit into the clothes here so I'm kind of limited as to what I can get myself (or at least I'm limiting myself about that). If I can find a really good pair of leather shoes, I'll buy them and I know I am definitely getting myself a nice leather bag. I'm just always concerned about money, how much things cost and stuff like that.
I'm playing the rest of my weekends by ear. I don't really do the whole planning thing unless I need to but I want to enjoy Florence and Italy itself. I go want to go to Bologna, Volterra, Perugia, and Pompeii but those are really the only things I would kind of plan besides spring break. I'm pretty sure I have enough time to see all those things and the museums I've missed here in Florence.
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