Away We Go

So here's how the last few months of my crazy life has gone:

My ex broke up with me August 3rd and we did try to work things out but unfortunately, I don't feel the same about him as I once did. I really don't know why. I still want him in my life though. Maybe I just need time to myself and get myself a little bit more put together before anything else in my life.

October 30th I got a call back to be hired at a place in Binghamton and I took the job offer. I have the same title as I did with Gateway but the residents I work with are more total care and lower functioning on the autism spectrum and MMR.

November 30th, I moved out of my parents house and into my own apartment in Binghamton. I've been here for almost a month now and I am really happy with the decision I made. I feel better mentally and physically. I love my job and my new manager and coworkers. I feel almost settled and I can say that I am truly happy with where I am in life currently. I won't say completely happy but I'm getting there. It's a work in progress.

One of my best friends, Brian, finally graduated from SUNY Oswego December 14th!!! I'm so proud of him! He got a job offer in Syracuse at Valvoline for essentially an assistant manager position. So he's next to go apartment hunting! I am very happy for him and very proud of him.

On the "love" front, I did meet a really nice guy back home, before I moved sadly. Since I've met him, he has called/texted me non stop which is nice. He did ask me out and I said yes but in my head it's a trail. I'm about 2 1/2 hours away and I'm not going to make the same mistake twice by being the sole person who makes all the trips and time to see the other. I probably won't be coming home that much anyway so he needs to find a way to come see me or it's a done deal. Been there, done that and it sucked which is part of why my 5 year relationship did not work out as well as I hoped. We'll see what happens. I'm in a position where actions are going to mean sooo much more than words. If you say you're going to come see me you better fucking do it. At this point, it's a one chance type of deal. I'm not going to put my heart through that again.

I don't know 100% where I'm going in life but I am fully enjoying the journey it has taken me on, even the hard, bad times.