Oh Holidays

So, today is Christmas Eve and this years Christmas celebrations are totally different that ti really doesn't feel like Christmas. It hasn't snowed, I wasn't really able to get as many things for people as I wanted due to lack of money, and we're not going to my cousins for our big family Christmas this year. They're in the process of moving to Florida and a lot of their things are packed up. They didn't want to "half ass" Christmas this year so everyone is doing their own thing this year. It's a little weird not going to their house to celebrate but it's okay.

My sisters and I have a Christmas Eve tradition for the last, I'll say 5 years. Danielle and Jessica usually come to our house, we wrap what's left of presents, play monopoly or some board game, and then at midnight we all go to Denny's in matching pajamas. Is it dorky? Fuck yeah it is but who cares? It's our tradition and we plan of keeping it that way. This year though, we're going to their house, exchanging gifts, playing some board game and then, of course, going to Denny's at midnight. Everything just feels a little off this year.

My visa appointment is Wednesday. I'm actually nervous about it but I think I'll be okay.

I would like to clear something up with some people though. I've been hearing a lot of "How's your boyfriend handling you going to Italy?" and stuff like that. Here's the deal, it's not about "handling" anything. He wants me to go and agrees that this is a great opportunity for me and that I need to do something for myself once in a while. Is it going to be tough not getting to see him or really talk to him a lot? Fuck yes it is but that doesn't mean we've stopped loving and caring for each other. Yeah it's going to be hard to have so much distance between us and everything that comes along with that but we still deeply care for one another and we both deeply love one another. If anything, I'm more worried about our relationship than he is but that doesn't mean we're going to run off with someone else or anything. It's just going to be difficult and we're going to make it work. So that's how WE'RE handling it.

Have a Merry Christmas!