It's Been Too Long

I know I hevn't kept up with this at all but life has gotten so busy, it just fell to the way side.

So first off, I don't work at a gas station anymore! I currently work as a residential counselor for developmentally disabled adults. I do love my job but it's so super stressful and I'm considered a per-diem worker but I work 40+ hours a week which include two overnight shifts a week. I hate the overnights by the way. There's NOTHING to do. I am grateful for the job and the experience. How many people can say they got a job in their field or even related to their field right after college? Not many.

Danielle and Adam got married May 25th 2013! I'm so happy for them! It was a great wedding and we rocked it out decorating and dress wise too!

Since my current job is so stressful and I don't have any health benefits, I started looking for jobs out of the hudson valley area. I've had several interviews and I'm still waiting for a few callbacks. I did end up landing a job up in Binghamton but sadly I had to turn it down because I couldn't take the pay cut and I wouldn't be able to do it financially. It's just getting to that time to move out and up. There's really nothing here for me anyway. Yes, my family is here but I can visit. For the most part, my friends are scattered about anyway. It's just getting to that time and it's kind of scary but I gotta do it.

My ex-boyfriend broke up with me on August 3rd. After two breakdowns and a lot of mistreatment from both of us to each other, he decided to end things. He's not stable enough for a relationship right now and I do understand that but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I'm not going to put anyone on blast. Things happen for a reason. It still really hurts and I do still care about him. We tried to be around each other on Friday and that was probably a bad idea. It was just too hard but we were together for 5 years. We don't really know how to not be in each others lives. I think it's something that will just take some time. I don't know what will happen down the road. I keep being told that I need to start acting my age. What the fuck does that mean? What am I supposed to be doing at 23 soon to be 24? I haven't acted/been my age since I was 12 so I don't know what acting my age means.

I'm doing my best to move forward but right now it's hard especially with the breakup. I'm grateful for all the support my friends and family have given me and I just have to keep trucking.