Weekends Aren't Long Enough

Yeah, that's true for just about anything really.

This past weekend was friends and family weekend here at SUNY Oswego. My boyfriend came to visit me which was really awesome! No one has ever come to visit me and I was super excited that he was able to. We went to the rugby game on Saturday and introduced him to my friend Swag (his actual name is Brian and some people call him frozone). We won the rugby game and now we're going to state championships this weekend! Anyway, it was just really nice to see him and spend time with him up here. It never seems like enough time and it goes by so quickly.

I really hate how most of our relationship has been a long distance relationship. I know I know, I can already hear everyone saying 'You're young! Get it over with now.' and that's all fine and good but it doesn't make it suck less. I just don't want to be apart anymore. I value the time that we get to spend together and I love getting to talk to him pretty much every night. It still doesn't take away the fact that I get lonely and I miss him a lot. It's hard and it's shitty. It's a three hour drive, one way, to Troy from Oswego and gas isn't cheap. I do what I can and I know he does try. It's not exactly cheap to take the bus from Albany to Syracuse and back either ($80 round trip ticket!). I just don't like it and I want to be able to wake up next to my boyfriend everyday or at the very least be able to see him whenever I want to and not have to drive three hours to see him. It's tough and taking him back to the bus station was so hard. I never want him to leave and I never want to leave when I go see him. Part of me wants us to start our lives together and part of me still wants to just be in my twenties. I love him so much and I just want to be with him, close to him.

I know at the end of this semester, after graduation, I really need to step it up and get a real job and apply to all those grad schools. Yeah, I'm scared shitless but it's life and it doesn't stop for anything. I know what I have to do and I'm just trying to keep my head up at this point.